Some songs are written because you want to create something.
Others are written because you have something inside of you that needs somewhere to go.
“Misery” was that kind of song for me.
I wrote it within the first month after losing my brother, Daniel. At that point in my life, I was still trying to understand what had happened. I was grieving, overwhelmed, and struggling to process emotions that felt too heavy to carry.
One night, I was sitting in my room and found myself spiraling downward. I was stuck in my thoughts, trying to make sense of everything.
That was when the idea for “Misery” started to take shape.
Turning Grief Into Music
When I started writing the song, I was not trying to create something perfect.
I was trying to give my pain a sound.
That is one of the most powerful things about music. It can take emotions that are difficult to explain and turn them into something you can hear, share, and understand.
At the time, I was carrying a lot of grief. Writing “Misery” gave me a way to take those feelings and put them somewhere outside of myself.
Instead of letting the pain stay trapped in my head, I could transform it into something meaningful.
The Meaning Behind “Misery”
The idea behind the song comes from personifying misery as something that follows you.
Almost like a monster that stays attached to your back.
The song is about that feeling when sadness becomes so familiar that it almost feels like a companion. You do not want it there, but you have carried it for so long that you recognize it.
A major part of the inspiration came from thinking about my brother’s life.
Daniel always seemed to have bad luck and get dealt difficult circumstances. It felt like he was constantly fighting battles that were not fair.
The idea that "misery was a friend to me all along" became a way of describing that feeling.
After losing him, that same misery became something I was experiencing myself.
Learning to Accept Difficult Emotions
One thing I hope people take away from “Misery” is that it is okay to feel pain.
Sometimes people try to rush through grief. They want to move on quickly or pretend they are fine when they are not.
But emotions need to be felt.
Being miserable for a moment does not mean you are broken. It means you are human.
The important thing is not allowing that feeling to control your entire life.
You can acknowledge the pain while still finding a way forward.
For me, writing this song was part of that process.
How Loss Changed My Music
Before losing Daniel, music was already important to me.
After losing him, it became something deeper.
Now, songwriting has become a way for me to process the challenges that come with life. Whether it is grief, frustration, uncertainty, or major transitions, music gives me a place to turn those experiences into something with meaning.
That is what I love about songwriting.
A difficult moment does not have to stay only a difficult moment.
Sometimes it can become a story. Sometimes it can become a song. Sometimes it can become something that helps another person feel understood.
Finding Meaning Through Music
“Misery” will always be a special song to me because it represents a moment in my life that changed everything.
It represents grief, but it also represents growth.
It reminds me that even our hardest experiences can become something valuable when we are willing to face them.
My hope is that anyone who hears this song and connects with it understands one thing:
Feel your emotions, but do not let them define you.
Take what you are going through and turn it into something useful.
For me, that something was music.
